Gospel Fellowship Association Missions
By Cathy Payne

"I am ready!"

Though the weather was changing with the arrival of fall in South Africa, the sun was a welcoming sign for a good day of outreach at our blood pressure monitoring ministry across from the Delft mall. A tall, thin, erect, and spry lady smiled broadly as she took a seat to have her blood pressure taken. Her wizened, deeply wrinkled face belied her vitality. She carried herself with an air of culture and sophistication and prided herself on her excellent health and good fortune to have met and married Mr. F.

Her health history was insignificant except for a severe cerebral vascular accident five years prior that had left her comatose for a time and bed-bound thereafter. “They said, at Groote Schuur [the provincial hospital where Dr. Christian Barnard had performed the world’s first heart transplant in 1967], ‘You will never walk,’ but look at me!” Her rehabilitation had been remarkable. Today, I hoped to see her consider more than her physical health and her completely normal blood pressure. When I shared the tract, “The Bridge to Eternal Life,” she countered, mentioning her Anglican Church infant baptism, confirmation, and membership, but surprisingly, she added, “I will come to your church tomorrow.” 

We hear this so often that we are always surprised when people keep their word. The next morning, however, she was at our service in another pastel-colored, polyester pant suit. She listened intently and seemed to enjoy our service. When I visited her a few days later to follow up on her visit to church, she told me that she liked our church. “It was homey!”

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After E. made a few more visits to church, I asked her if she would like to do a Bible study with me. Thus began a relationship of weekly Bible studies through our Afrikaans translation of THE EXCHANGE. During the next months as we studied together from week to week, she came to understand and believe in the Good News of Jesus’ substitutionary death on the cross for our sins and His resurrection from the dead for our justification. She knew she was a sinner and needed forgiveness of sin, but she was at an impasse about her need to forgive the wrongs she had suffered at the hands of others—especially at the hands of her children. Whenever I encouraged E. that the Bible teaches one must be converted to go to heaven, she always recounted the deep bitterness she was holding toward her youngest wayward son. He had sold her home and taken off with the money while she was hospitalized.

Both E. and I often had tears as I presented the claims of the Gospel to her. When I would ask if she didn’t want to bow her head to confess her faith in Christ and ask for forgiveness, she would begin to recount again how she had been sinned against by her children, especially by her youngest son who had left her on the floor for a weekend waiting for her to die after her stroke. Each time I asked her if she was willing to open her hand and allow Jesus to take that bitterness away, she would clench her fist tightly and begin to repeat it all again as if on autopilot.

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At springtime after a ladies’ luncheon at our home, she came to me after the meal and Bible study and said, “I am ready.” I thought she meant she was ready to be taken home. When I told her that Pastor Tony would soon begin transporting all those who needed transportation, she said, “No, Sister, I am ready to open my hand!” When we reviewed the Gospel this time, she told the Lord in brokenness that she was opening her hand and forgiving her son because she was a sinner and needed His forgiveness.

About four months later she was baptized as a believer on her 84th birthday in March 2020. She testified: “God loved me so much and sent Jesus to die for me. He forgave me all my many, many sins when I called on his name to save me.” She didn’t mention anyone else’s sin against her. Her transaction between her and God was settled. She had opened her hand and forgiven others as God had forgiven her.

For the next few years, our dear, tall sister E. was a faithful member and became a sort of “Pied Piper,” leading many children on her street to our church and Sunday school. In August 2022, she went home to glory with open hands!

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