Life was wonderful! Paula and I finished college and on the heels of marriage began deputation, which was actually our extended honeymoon. Nine months later we moved to southern Texas to study at a Spanish language school, which we excitedly saw as the final hurdle to becoming missionaries to Mexico. I was 24, Paula was 22, and we were filled with great vision and optimism for the future as we prepared for the day when we would finally cross that border and begin our lifelong ministry in Mexico. We were ready—or at least we thought we were.
Two months before graduation we received a monthly support statement and check from GFA—it came to a total of $312. That was it! It was barely enough to pay our utilities and the rent on the space where we parked our travel trailer. It was our custom every month to pay all our bills immediately upon “payday.” We assumed that what was left over was what the Lord planned for us to live on for the rest of the month, but this time nothing was left.
The pantry became bare after one week, and we still had three weeks to go before we would receive our next support check from GFA. Not sharing my concerns with my young, pregnant wife, I started to panic. Aggravated by hunger and desperation, my concern turned to an impatient spirit towards God. My heart was saying, “Lord, we gave ourselves to serve You. We left our home, family, and church in Michigan to do this, and now look where it has gotten us. Where are You? Is this how You care for your servants?”